December 29th, 2008 at 4:07 pm
That’s how I feel right now. I’m having an intense out of body experience. It’s one of the interesting side effects of stopping Paxil cold turkey.
No I didn’t stop Paxil for good. The only annoying side effect of Paxil is delayed ejaculation. Paxil works on the serotonin levels in your brain. It normalizes the serotonin levels very quickly alleviating the depression and anxiety symptoms quicker than any other anti-depressant.
Like I said, taking Paxil makes me a stable, happy, normal functioning person, except I cant ejaculate. If its been two weeks or more since I last ejaculated I begin to have horrible painful prostate cramps. The only thing to do then is to stop Paxil for a day or so, relieve myself and then get back on Paxil.
Yesterday I did not take my Paxil when I woke up. I had plans to relieve myself in order to kill the cramping but things didn’t quite work out the way I had planned.
The wife was sick and had allergies, not a good combination. So with sex with the wife out of the question the only other option was to treat my penis like a suspect in a cop shooting and beat the shit out of it in the interrogation room.
And of course I didn’t have a single lick of alone time. The frustration of not being able to rid myself of the horrible painful cramping combined with not taking a single one of my anti-crazy pills and it made for a pretty pissy day yesterday.
Somehow I passed out at nine last night and didn’t wake up until one this afternoon.
Right now I feel as like Im not here. I’m not connected to my body. Nothing is real. Everything is fake. No one exists. None of this is real.
So I took two Paxil, a Wellbutrin and my blood pressure medication. I should feel normal again by tonight, but the painful prostate cramps continue.
Such is life.
December 9th, 2008 at 11:47 am
The last 5 days have, well, sucked big donkey balls. I’ve been out of my Lisinopril, blood pressure medication, for about three weeks now. I attempted to get a refill however when I left the Air Force I was placed under Tricare Standard health insurance, which means you are a leper and no one will help you, instead of Tricare Prime, which means you are Britney Spears and everyone wants to see your snatch. Yeah.
I also ran out of my Paxil. They did give me an emergency refill of 10 pills. The only reason they gave me a refill on those was because if they had not they would have been held liable for anything I did while off of the pills. You can not stop Paxil cold turkey. These pills were round instead of long john shaped. I looked up the stamp and it indeed said 20mg Paxil or generic. Cool. Well, THEY DIDN”T FUCKING WORK!!!!!!
I have a Dell Xps 710, 6 GB or RAM, GeForce 8800 GT OC 512MB, Pimp ass sound card, i dont remembe what its called. Now, I have a Dell XPS…with no working power supply.
So..no blood pressure meds, a blood pressure of 150/100, no Paxil, no control, no power supply, no computer, no Warhammer. I’ll give you three guesses what happened.
I went fukeeng loco mayn.
Instead of simply ordering a new power supply unit from Dell for 50$ which would have been here in three days, I somehow convinced myself that I needed to get a new tower, motherboard and power supply unit and I’d just transfer the rest over to the new rig.
I nearly spend over 300$. But I didn’t. For a brief moment I guess there was a window of clarity. Not sure.
The wife and I also got into a wicked argument. The argument was basically about me being nuts and her being confused as fuck as to what to do when.
I spent the weekend yelling, throwing shit, kicking shit, and generally just pissy as fuck. The only thing that offered a brief break in the pissyness was *CENSORED*.
I didn’t read, I didn’t listen to music, I didn’t watch any football. I just didn’t give a fuck.
Today though, everything is great. I have my bloodpressure meds again. I have a three month supply of the right kind of Paxil, you know, long john shaped. Still have my Wellbutring and *CENSORED* which helps.
I finally feel like the dude who wrote nearly 40 posts in November again.
September 10th, 2008 at 12:54 pm
I just wanted to give a thanks to all those who left me wonderful words of support over the last few days. It was much appreciated and did in fact help me through a rough couple of days. I was able to pick up my Paxil today and I feel a bagillion times better.
In my current giddy mood I thought I’d share a quick picture of “The Mullet” as my friends call it. This is partly in response to AngieSS’s post on her website.
September 9th, 2008 at 12:17 pm
I am mentally ill. I have been for as long as I can remember. It wasn’t until last year however that I actually realized I had a mental illness. I began therapy and a regiment of medication. The therapy and medication has allowed me to control my mental illness and live a normal life.
I honestly attribute most of my progress on Paxil. Paxil is an amazing medication. If you suffer from depression, obsessive compulsive disorder or any form of social anxiety I highly recommend talking to your doctor about Paxil.
There is a catch. Paxil has severe withdrawal symptoms.
Serious physical Paxil withdrawal symptoms can include nausea, vomiting, dizziness, sweating, motor system disturbances, fever, chills, tremors, sleep disturbances, gastrointestinal problems, flu-like symptoms, vertigo, and the feeling of “electric zaps” throughout the body. Paxil withdrawal symptoms can also cause serious psychological symptoms such as: confusion, anxiety, irritability, panic attacks, uncontrollable moods, depression, suicidal ideations, and aggressive thoughts and actions.
One of the most serious Paxil withdrawal symptoms is a condition known as akathisia. This condition is marked by extreme agitation and motor restlessness. This condition can become so severe that individuals may begin to develop suicidal or aggressive thoughts. Many doctors believe that akathisia is a precursor to SSRI related suicides.
Paxil withdrawal symptoms can last a few days or they can last up to three weeks. Patients who are suffering from Paxil withdrawal symptoms may wish to consult their physician to discuss their problems with a professional familiar with their medical background. Paxil’s maker, GlaxoSmithKline, is well aware of the serious damage that Paxil withdrawal symptoms can cause, but have done nothing to protect consumers from the harmful side effects related to their product.
My last dose of Paxil was taken on Friday. It’s now Tuesday. I won’t be able to pick up any more Paxil until tomorrow. As I write this I feel like death becoming. No words can do justice to how I feel. Despite this I am still a big supporter of Paxil. The benefits far and away exceed the potential downside.
If you are currently taking Paxil or know of anyone who is, please, please, please, do not let your/their prescription run out. I would not wish Paxil withdrawal symptoms on anyone. I feel as if I have an uber strain of influenza. Combine that with a very odd confused, out of body mental state and it does not make for a good last couple of days.
Anyways, I just wanted to share that with you guys. 
August 25th, 2008 at 9:40 am
I’m not talking about my daughter who we dropped off for her first day of kindergarten just a minute ago. I’m talking about me. It’s been 15 years since i attended school. The odd social fears and anxieties came flooding back the moment I walked into that school. I felt enclosed. I felt crowded. I felt overwhelmed.
While it may sound odd that a 33 year old man would have a mild panic attack in an elementary school there are reasons behind it. I suffer from Dysthymia, mild ADHD, mild OCD and General Anxiety Disorder. I take Wellbutrin and Paxil each day to help with my issues.
I was so caught up this morning in the whole first day of school for our first born moment that I forgot to take my medication before we left. The mild episode I suffered this morning however was a good reminder that no matter how good I may feel, it is imperative that I continue to take the medication each day.
I just felt like sharing that. Not sure why.
